What's Happening .
We've been through a lot lately, we've got to admit that it isn't going great in our youth group especially in my life. Recalling what pastor Mark has prophesied about me, about the pruning that God will do in my life, that it will be painful. Back then I said that it's just gonna be a piece of cake, ooooh, what pride I had back then, but now, it isn't, for real it aint. Everybody thinks that I'm ok these past 2 weeks, but inside I'm not. Paul was right when he said "The Spirit is willing but the body is weak." I've been doing things I should not do, the things that I have been doing when I was in the world. If I could just turn back time, and fix these things.
I totally regret what I have done last year, 2007. I've been asking God for a sign if I'll go to Bible School or not and God did what I have asked, but I asked for another, then God did what I have asked again, but again, I asked for another sign, for the 3rd time, God did what I asked. But I didn't go to Bible School, I'm too afraid of what my mom will say, coz she really want me to finish college. God has really called me but I was too afraid, so I end up studying in a secular school, and I am a student assistant there but it turned out to be not good, I'm in the class but my mind is totally in the youth group. how well they are, where they are right now, the fellowships we will have and this and thats and more...back then I was so eager to learn, but now it's gone. My mind and my heart is completely in the youth group and in the church.
May is approaching, coz this is the month that we'll gonna enroll on universities and schools, and I've been thinking if I'll be a full time pastor at the church. This time I didn't asked God for a sign coz for me I think that I am dictating what God should do, so I just said to God, "God speak to me" and God spoke to me, He said "Full Time" but again I was too afraid of what my mom will say, so I end up again at the same school. Actually the day that they are to speak to me about these things, in going full time or in school, I made up my mind that I'll gonna be a full time pastor at the church, but I couldn't say it, what I have said is just totally to the opposite of what should I do and what I want.
There's so much more to say. Life is not always gonna be full of joy and laughter, there are problems, worries, doubts and more but the good thing is we're not giving up on God. Please pray for us brethrens, have a blessed day, thank you and Godblezyol!
We've been through a lot lately, we've got to admit that it isn't going great in our youth group especially in my life. Recalling what pastor Mark has prophesied about me, about the pruning that God will do in my life, that it will be painful. Back then I said that it's just gonna be a piece of cake, ooooh, what pride I had back then, but now, it isn't, for real it aint. Everybody thinks that I'm ok these past 2 weeks, but inside I'm not. Paul was right when he said "The Spirit is willing but the body is weak." I've been doing things I should not do, the things that I have been doing when I was in the world. If I could just turn back time, and fix these things.
I totally regret what I have done last year, 2007. I've been asking God for a sign if I'll go to Bible School or not and God did what I have asked, but I asked for another, then God did what I have asked again, but again, I asked for another sign, for the 3rd time, God did what I asked. But I didn't go to Bible School, I'm too afraid of what my mom will say, coz she really want me to finish college. God has really called me but I was too afraid, so I end up studying in a secular school, and I am a student assistant there but it turned out to be not good, I'm in the class but my mind is totally in the youth group. how well they are, where they are right now, the fellowships we will have and this and thats and more...back then I was so eager to learn, but now it's gone. My mind and my heart is completely in the youth group and in the church.
May is approaching, coz this is the month that we'll gonna enroll on universities and schools, and I've been thinking if I'll be a full time pastor at the church. This time I didn't asked God for a sign coz for me I think that I am dictating what God should do, so I just said to God, "God speak to me" and God spoke to me, He said "Full Time" but again I was too afraid of what my mom will say, so I end up again at the same school. Actually the day that they are to speak to me about these things, in going full time or in school, I made up my mind that I'll gonna be a full time pastor at the church, but I couldn't say it, what I have said is just totally to the opposite of what should I do and what I want.
There's so much more to say. Life is not always gonna be full of joy and laughter, there are problems, worries, doubts and more but the good thing is we're not giving up on God. Please pray for us brethrens, have a blessed day, thank you and Godblezyol!
